Crude Beginnings
This is the diary of a law student......
So begins the beginning of a 2L, 7 weeks into the semester. Mostly, I will probably be bitching about law school. I invite others to bitch, share their triumphs, secrets, tricks of the trades, rants of the day, whatever is on their mind about law school, the ups, the downs, the good, the bad & the hideous.
Today, or rather this evening, the particular thing that's always on my mind? MONEY, MONEY and where can I get more of it? I'm in a different situation than most "traditional" law students. No I'm not in my 40s and I only stayed a year out of undergrad before going to law school. No, my situation is the lack of the moolah. I don't get private loans OR GradPlus loans because I have shitty credit and no one to cosign for me. I get what the government gives & what the government gives aint shit. Which brings me to my point, I did all the right things growing up: I finished high school (w/ pretty good grades), I didn't use drugs or have sex, I didn't get pregnant or go on welfare, I went to college, graduated in 4 years, did a bunch of clubs & activities there, also graduated w/ good grades from a good school. I did what "society" encourages young people to do, to be a contributing member of society one day. What type of reward do I get for it? NOTHING.
And for all those anti-affirmative action people out there, I am black AND a woman and not one program specifically benefited me. I WAS NOT rewarded for being responsible, for not becoming a statistic in the black community. And believe me the odds were against me, single parent household, absentee father, etc. etc. Fortunately I had an awesome role model, my mother. Instead however, the government likes to reward those less responsible, i.e. BABY MAMAS the target of my hatred which never quite seems to go away. If I was a baby mama I would get all the benefits the government can confer not to mention the tax credits. I wouldn't have to get working x number of hours a week AND be a full time student. The stress of law school alone is enough to make you crazy let alone to have financial drama.
I know I have it better than most and I am grateful for what I do have. Sometimes though the struggle makes it hard to get through the day let alone the semester. It's like swimming upstream without a break and it's definitely hard to see the light at the end of long, dark, damp tunnel, but I know, rationally, eventually there is an end....right?
Anywho, it's late I have class in the morning and I promise not everything will always be negative. But frankly, I don't care if anyone reads this or thinks this is negative, I think law students need a safe harbor to vent. And this will be that place, if not for anyone else but for me. Goodnite cyberspace.
So begins the beginning of a 2L, 7 weeks into the semester. Mostly, I will probably be bitching about law school. I invite others to bitch, share their triumphs, secrets, tricks of the trades, rants of the day, whatever is on their mind about law school, the ups, the downs, the good, the bad & the hideous.
Today, or rather this evening, the particular thing that's always on my mind? MONEY, MONEY and where can I get more of it? I'm in a different situation than most "traditional" law students. No I'm not in my 40s and I only stayed a year out of undergrad before going to law school. No, my situation is the lack of the moolah. I don't get private loans OR GradPlus loans because I have shitty credit and no one to cosign for me. I get what the government gives & what the government gives aint shit. Which brings me to my point, I did all the right things growing up: I finished high school (w/ pretty good grades), I didn't use drugs or have sex, I didn't get pregnant or go on welfare, I went to college, graduated in 4 years, did a bunch of clubs & activities there, also graduated w/ good grades from a good school. I did what "society" encourages young people to do, to be a contributing member of society one day. What type of reward do I get for it? NOTHING.
And for all those anti-affirmative action people out there, I am black AND a woman and not one program specifically benefited me. I WAS NOT rewarded for being responsible, for not becoming a statistic in the black community. And believe me the odds were against me, single parent household, absentee father, etc. etc. Fortunately I had an awesome role model, my mother. Instead however, the government likes to reward those less responsible, i.e. BABY MAMAS the target of my hatred which never quite seems to go away. If I was a baby mama I would get all the benefits the government can confer not to mention the tax credits. I wouldn't have to get working x number of hours a week AND be a full time student. The stress of law school alone is enough to make you crazy let alone to have financial drama.
I know I have it better than most and I am grateful for what I do have. Sometimes though the struggle makes it hard to get through the day let alone the semester. It's like swimming upstream without a break and it's definitely hard to see the light at the end of long, dark, damp tunnel, but I know, rationally, eventually there is an end....right?
Anywho, it's late I have class in the morning and I promise not everything will always be negative. But frankly, I don't care if anyone reads this or thinks this is negative, I think law students need a safe harbor to vent. And this will be that place, if not for anyone else but for me. Goodnite cyberspace.
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